There is a side of me that no one knows
I’m so deeply afraid it’s going to be exposed
All the darkness that goes through my head
And the thoughts that I carry straight to my bed
My mind is filled with panic and fear
There are many times I want to disappear
To run away and never look back
It’s during those times I give myself a panic attack
The darkness surrounded me
It pinned me to the wall
I crashed and stumbled
As I began to fall
The pain cut like a hundred stabbing knives
You can’t even begin to imagine all the pain I try to hide.
The darkness crushed me.
It brought me to the floor
I screamed and hollered
And said I don’t want to feel no more
Hello are you listening are you even there?
Do you see my tear stained face do you even care?
Of course you don’t see it I hide it everyday
When I go to work and take the kids out to play
I put on my face and act like nothing is wrong
You would not know I have cried all day long
The shadow of doubt and fear followed everywhere I went
It poked and prodded me until I damn near bent
But that’s the thing about being resilient
I spring back every time
I took the enemy by the head and said you are no longer mine
I will take back my life, my spirit and my soul
My emotions I will never let you control
For I am strong, and brave, and beautiful too
Look in the mirror and so are you
We are always so quick to believe the lies we hear in our minds
And all the scattered thoughts that our brains keep confined
So just incase you forgot you have a purpose too
What would the world do if it didn’t have you?
You are capable of so many amazing things
Do you understand the value that your life brings?
We all go through it, we all get a little dark
But please don’t let those feelings tear you apart
I have many things to say, but I have one plea
Let’s break these negative chains of bondage and be set free
